My journey started exactly one year and two months from today. Fresh out of college and into the real world I went. Okay for about two months I didn't really have any real plans, I was just trying to enjoy life and I did. After those two months passed I decided it was time to get serious and I needed to figure out what I wanted to do with my life but there was only one problem, I didn't really know. I knew what I enjoyed doing and what I thought would make me happy but do we ever really know until we experience life and take a chance? Well, that is what I decided to do and let me tell you, it hasn't been all sunshine and roses, but it hasn't been all bad either.
I decided to take a job on the East Coast in Pennsylvania, sixteen hours away from my family and friends. Could I really move that far away where I don't know anyone and start a whole new life. Of course I could, why not, the little voice inside my head told me, and I agreed. I still agree to this day but it hasn't come without its struggles.
So I did it, I moved across the country for my job. The position was what I wanted and it was going to help me get on the right track and figure out my life. Now, part of that is true. I do think a job can assist you in figuring out your life but it shouldn't necessarily determine what the rest of your life is going to be. We should never feel confined to our jobs or feel we have one path to follow which is why we need to take chances and try new things to figure out what is going to make us happy. I enjoy my job and I am learning so much from my experience and yet I still feel like something is missing. Doesn't that sound like the typical person in today's world, always feeling like we have this void to fill instead of living in the moment and taking life one step at a time. We all have this desire to figure out our lives right now and try to rush the process, which is how I approached this last year. I am not going to say I was naive and thought happiness would be instant, but I have been struggling to figure out what will make me happy. I am still working on it but I take comfort in knowing I don't have to know right now but I do need to keep taking chances and living life one moment at a time to figure it out.
I think something I've always known about myself is I am a people person and I like having my family or a good group of friends, a support system when needed. Part of my struggle this last year was I thought other people could help me be happy and having people around me would fill the void. I learned that is not always true because sometimes the loneliest people are the ones who have a lot of people around them. It is all about surrounding yourself with people who won't make you feel alone but help you feel alive. They will let you be yourself and figure out life for yourself, let you stumble every once in awhile but also being someone to turn to in time of need. I've recently come to the realization that it is sometimes good to be alone, not to be lonely but learn about yourself and what you want out of life. I will always be a people person but it is nice knowing I can be independent of the people around me.
So the questions is, do I regret the decision to take a chance and start this journey I am on? Not one bit. While it may seem like it has been a real struggle, which at times it has, I am learning a lot from it. I don't think we should ever regret any decisions we make in our lives, that is easier to say than actually practice but if we learn from our past struggles that is what is important. We are all on different life journeys and along the way we can learn so much about ourselves if we are open to it. Don't live life in regret because you will miss all the good that life has to offer.
My goal with this blog is to share my life experience and my hope is that readers will find it helpful and maybe find a connection to it. I think as people it is important for us to share what we have gone through because it can let others know they are not struggling alone. I believe on some level we are connected with people we don't even know due to our similar life experiences. I hope you enjoy my posts and feel free to reach out to me with any comments. I am planning on posting every Friday so I look forward to next week.
"I am stronger because I had to be.
I'm smarter because of my mistakes,
happier because of the sadness I've known,
and wiser because I learned."
Annie
"I am stronger because I had to be.
I'm smarter because of my mistakes,
happier because of the sadness I've known,
and wiser because I learned."
Annie
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